Vulnerability

As defined:

adj.

1.

a. Susceptible to physical or emotional injury.

b. Susceptible to attack: "We are vulnerable both by water and land, without either fleet or army" (Alexander Hamilton).

c. Open to censure or criticism; assailable.

2.

a. Liable to succumb, as to persuasion or temptation.

b. Games In a position to receive greater penalties or bonuses in a hand of bridge. In a rubber, used of the pair of players who score 100 points toward game.

 This definition makes me ponder.  It presents itself as a negative attribute, however, when I think of it in the context of the human condition, I get conflicted.  In my recent therapy sessions (yes, I see a therapist), I've been asked to try to be more vulnerable to others whom I admire; let them in and allow them to see my weaknesses in hopes of receiving support I might not otherwise have received if I remained closed off.  This is incredibly difficult for me.  I suppose I can attribute some of it to the feeling as though I've often had to fend for myself for quite some time.  Those that I've perhaps relied upon in the past have either not met my expectations or let me down considerably.  

In my family and for those who are close to me, if they haven't said it directly, would agree I am known as being the "Rock".   Harboring burdens, helping those in need, lending empathetic ears all the while keeping my own world turning in a way I've prescribed as the right way.

I don't see being vulnerable as a weakness, necessarily, rather a strength that I have yet to harness or posses.