OMG OMG OMG OMG! If I didn't take a moment to reflect on the milestone that's nearly upon us, I wouldn't be quite so dramatic, but for fuck's sake, I'm gonna be dramatic!
THIS IS AMAZING!!!!!
I have been trying to de-emphasize in my head the amount of time we've been together so I don't get myself all wrapped up in trying to hurry into our future, but as we get closer to Oct 2nd, I am not feeling confident I wont be an ecstatic mess. How did you become the perfect man for me? I love your wit, your sensitivity, your common sense, your patience and your raw human male nature.
There are still more pieces to you I uncover and witness that endear me to you even more, and I didn't think I could love you anymore; then boom, there's more to love. As you were starting to tell me about the incident with your ex and the frequent texting, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck begin to stand up. It was a fear of the closeness you once had with her as well as a jealously of the familiarity and connection you will always have with her because she is the mother of your children. In that moment I had a choice on how to react and internalize the information you shared. I could let that fear and jealously of your past life with her and the same connection I will have to maintain with my ex, turn into a sour pit in my stomach. Or, I could embrace the sensitivity you had towards this situation by sharing it with me and going so far as to take action to minimize the amount of communication between you and your ex. It showed me you have respect for me, my feelings and the living, breathing evolving thing that is our relationship with one another. I'm glad you decided to share the situation and what you did.
I've said, "ignorance is bliss" before when it comes to things that might make me feel jealous, however, you use those situations as opportunity to demonstrate the depths of your love.
There I go again, loving you even more.
