Date #5 in the books and #6 tonight!

Yesterday as I was feeling growing excitement about having you over again and how this time there will be no time constraints, I became aware and slightly unsettled, that I have not been as proactive with verbally sharing my feelings towards you as you have been with me.

It seems like I find myself saying, "me too" and "I feel the same way" a lot.  And while those words are true, you deserve to hear more than this. 

When we met,  I felt immediate attraction and  was drawn to you in a way where you feel the energy of the other person and it just makes you feel good and want more. This feeling isn't fading.
You are incredibly thoughtful, such a gentleman, you take care of yourself and you posses the qualities I believe are very important to me.  When I say you are amazing and wonderful, I mean it.  You have me craving our next meeting, feeling happy/content/passionate when we are together, and missing you only moments after we part.

It's a bit scary to be involved in something so wonderful and so fragile at the same.  And by fragile, I mean worthy of great care and respect.  I really like you a lot.  We seem to be on the same page in this regard.  Not sure how much better this can get, but I know there's a lot more for me to give.  I can hardly wait to get there.

 

Date #4

Oh boy!

 

 

 

I don't really know where to begin this post but to say I have never felt more "me" than when I am with you.  Fortunate does not come close to describing how I feel that we came into each other's lives.  There are times where it seems like both of us want to say something more, share more feelings, become more vulnerable with each other, but yet, it has only been 4 dates, so we are cautious.  I think both you and I have over used the words, "like you a lot'.

 

I have only encountered a few times in my life where I have felt a sense of trust enough to 

break down my barriers and let myself be vulnerable to another person.  I'm getting the sense you might be in the same place I am.  We are on the cusp.

I am attracted to you, I respect you, I appreciate what you've already done for me in terms of kindness and returned respect.  If you feel the same, I look forward to our partnership.  There's just something about you that is familiar, right, and exciting all at the same time.

You?

Yes, we met online and chatted a little bit here and there.  I wasn't sure what your motivation was and I was swimming in the sea of being irritated with online dating.

You see, I've been at this game for about 3 years now.  I have met a few high quality men through this venue, so I kept trying.  I honestly wasn't sure what you were up to and I discounted you.  I'm so sorry.  You should be regarded at a premium. 

You, however, are amazing.  Such a gentleman.  Seemingly no baggage or hangups.  How is that possible?  I hope you see the best in me.  So looking forward to knowing you more.

Excerpt from The Four Agreements

If someone is not treating you with love and respect, it is a gift if they walk away from you.  If that person doesn't walk away, you will surely endure many years of suffering with him or her.  Walking away may hurt for awhile, but your heart will eventually heal.  Then you can choose what you really want.  You will find you do not need to trust others as much as you need to trust yourself to make the right choices.